She's beautiful as usual with bruises on her ego

Ok, sry i haven't been on in forever and haven't posted any poems or songs 

but i'm gonna start again today! 

ok, this one is a poem named Vicodin. 

Enjoy! please comment your opinon! 

Nights sleeping on the bathroom floor.

Your bed no longer comforting.

Is this all your life is made for?

To many pills to count, tonight.

Mixed up remedies,

messed up summaries.

Now i can't sleep to save my life.

Whenever i close my eyes,

every memory burns brighter than before.

No medicine will heal these scars.

No drugs will earse these memories.

No one will be able to clean this mess,

i'm to far gone.

My life was just a hit and miss.

No music can tune out this pain.

Tonight, tonight.

even the blackest sky,

wont hear my cry.

♥ Cass!

Every touch seepes in further

hitting my heart.

Every look shocks my eyes

so much harder.

Every little word hits me

 like no one ever talked before.

So obviously i'm gonna stu stu studder

when i talk to you.

I'm not made for this press press pressure

your putting me in.

And i'm gonna stare when your not knowing i'm there.

And i'm gonna admire you.

And i'm gonna attache myself to your side.

'til you scream for mercy.

I'm gonna love you.

My love

this love.

It's 100% love.

My roses are bleeding true for you.

I'm 100% sure

this love

my love.

 

Got inspirred by some old movie and a perfume called 100% Love, idk i thought that maybe it could work for a verse or chorus.just maybe. unfortunately no one special is involved with the true feeling of the lyrics. atleast not yet.

 

 

This what i got so far so tell me if you like it.... the songs startes with the chorus, ( i can't figure out a starting yet).

Your not as pretty as i wished for,
 just take another good look in the mirror again
your not as pretty as i hoped for.
just turn around again.

you ignore the thought of me
until it's all you think about.

This is life
so stop complaining

you were never this deep
only about 2 feet
until you hit rock bottom

Your not as pretty as i wished for
just take another good look in the mirror again.
your not as pretty as i hoped for
just stop your complaining.

so this is life
so stop complaining
build your brigde
and get over it
 no one's gonna changed your life but you

i said you were beautiful 
but then i saw you.

your not as pretty as i wished for
just take another good look in the mirror.
your not as pretty
as i wished for
on the luckies stars i could find
but they did no good

i said you were beautiful
but then i saw you

so what happens next is i walk away
and you just stand
and watch me live my life

Honey i'm sorry to say
but no one's gonna change your life
but you

and your already not as pretty as i hoped for.

My coursage hanging by a thread now
while you walk on by.
i'm just a stripp away breaking down.
bare foot
and staring at who you i thought you were.

the noise all comes from your direction.
forgetting everything you every knew about me.

While i'm dieing in the spot light.

Homecoming
home to the senoirs
homecoming
and sweet coresses.
filled with sympathy
while my crystal blue tears fall.

and i'll miss who i thought you were
and talking during a block lunch.
french class will be more boring.
with out you around.
but you were never really in class.

My life was picture perfect
then you woke me up
and i found your not as pretty as i thought you were.
when my makeup ran
you were nowhere to be found
all it find were my true friends
we stick to the end.

Dirty looks across the lunch
only tell me who you really are.
and i don't care anymore.

While i'm dieing in the spot light.

Homecoming
home to the senoirs
homecoming
and sweet coresses.
filled with sympathy
while my crystal blue tears fall.

and i'll miss who i thought you were
and talking during "A" block lunch.
french class will be more boring.
with out you around.
but you were never really in class.

what you've done only teaches me lessons
to not be you.
your not as pretty as i wished for

And i'll wonder who you could have been.
but thats not my problem anymore
don't ask me if i'm alright.
don't ask to talk to me
you piroities need to change
then come see me.

While i'm dieing in the spot light.

Homecoming
home to the senoirs
homecoming
and sweet coresses.
filled with sympathy
while my crystal blue tears fall.

and i'll miss who i thought you were
and talking during "A" block lunch.
french class will be more boring.
with out you around.
but you were never really in class.

You chose who felt mattered
and it's your loss
and my tears that went down.
 but it's easier to make tears then to make true friends
that you once had.

And one's dieing in the spot light
watching you just disappearing
i put all hope in you
and trusted you
how did i get this back.
one broken heart
and 5,000 miss used tears.
but you lost one good friend you'll never gain again.

from, all you did at homecoming
home to the senoirs.
homecoming
 with sweet coresses
filles with sympathy
while my crystal blue tears
 fall along with all thoughts of you.
as you walk away
and my last thread snapps
along with the friendship we once owned.

I lost 5,000 tears that night
but you lost a friend you'll never gain back.
but just think
you chose who you thought mattered the most.

these are random lrics from songs i haven't finished yet.
Bright thoughts
i'm calling your name
but the light is quickly faiding
on me
on you
were faiding away
just think of brigth thoughts
as i faid into the dark
just think of bright thoughts
as i faid away into my world
i wish i was never apart of.
(this is what i have so have, tell me if you like it)
Disaproving faces
your as random as the rain
falling from the faces of disaproving angels.
but you heal me, you heeal me through
you heal me through my life stories.
and my disaproving faces.
crashing
the ocean crashing down
reminds me of your hipnotic eyes
pushing me into the sand
in a life i can't stand.

Frist born & only childern characteristics.
perfectionist
highly motivated
reliable
conscientious
well-organized
critical
serious
logical
scholarly
goal-orientated
loyal
conservative
self-reliant.
Middle born characteristics ( me)!
willing to compromise
friendly
sociable
mediator
independent
secretive
avoider of conflict
extremely loyal to peers
prone to embarrassment.
last born characteristics
charming
manipulative
people-orientated
engaging
attention-seeking
show-off
class clown
blamer of others
good salesperson.
leabe a comment if you have any thoughts or feeling toward this list. i found in a bathroom at my sister's college so i took  it. LOL!
♥ CASS!

Sitting here thinking of something to talk about and then finding out that you really have nothing new because nothing exciting happens to you and only to the others around, it's really kinda depressing.
i hope that high school will rock and that i'm happy most of the time and that theres no drama. I've said goodbye to bitches and i'm just hopeing that they leave me alone because i want high school to rock like it did when Nicole went(my older sister). but with my luck it'll probably feel like i'm in junoir high, and i'll probably still feel like a 7th grader until my senoir year i'll have only one year to have real fun before saying goodbye to some and far well forever to others. you know what?life sux and you need to live ever moment you have  because some day you'll have your last breathe and suddendly think of a moment where you wish that you where doing something fun instead of watching TV or getting high or something. then you'll want to go do that action you've desired for so long. you'll forget that your dieing and forget to fight for your life and your gone into the unknown because you didn't live your life. thats why people who live their lives they die peacefully because they understand that it's their time to go and they lived their life. the ones who don't live their life notice they're dieing when theres only seconds to go,they struggle and panic. then theres the people who even out their life and do somethings but not others and they have miracles and they live...... i wish to be like them
a miracle that lived.

♥ CASS.

(this is the chorus.)

have hot pink dreams
and dedication lullabies
black tomorrow
and white sounds.
midnight sorrow.
and red rage
yellow lazyness.
and purple mysteries
blue observations
 green envy.
and gray personality.
these are the every few things
 i wish for you


Do you like? add a coment if you do. thanks
♦ Cassie.

Right now i'm really bored and tired. i've been trying to write another descent song but nothings coming. i've had this "writer's block" for like ever. angry and depressed sad songs are all that i've wrote so far and i need to write atleast one happy song to put on our CD or whatever. right now  my frined and i right are pissed at another girl( i'm not saying her name but you probably already know who) she's getting jealous of me and how i have friends and stuff. i mean she's got friends but they never want to spend time with her, i say those aren't frineds but whatever floats her bloat is fine with me. ok i'm bored out of my mind. i have nothing to do but walk my dog, but i'm to tired and lazy right now to do that........ i think i'll make my braja do it.LOL! i'm excited to see my faja's side of the family soon, we're driving to New York it's along drive but i haven't seen my cousins in like...... ok idk how long LOL. i think i should update my page but i can't get any pictures of anything on my computer because it's being stupid. i think i'm going to walk my dog now but i have to get dressed and it's a long walk up those stairs to my room. ok i sound really lazy right now but trust me i'm usually full of energy. but i was up until about 3:30am then for some werid reason i woke up around 8:30am so i only got like........4or 5 hours of sleep! thats not healthy! ok i'm going to watch some "Boy Meets World" because it's on now and i love that show! LOL! i'll probably post another journal today because i've got nothing else to do. ttyl ilul thanks for reading this stupid thing about my boredum. LOL. leave me a comment or something so i can read it and entertain myself for awhile. TTFN! ~ Cassie.